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Saturday, May 29, 2010

Expectation brings Failure

There's many philosophy that Human Mind is a Monkey which jumps frequently. This is due to the expectation. Everyone has their one expectation in their life. There is no limit for expectation and desire. Even everyone of us would have expected to possess super natural powers like superman, spider man in our childhood. We know its sounds crazy but still we desire. A kid expects his parents should always take care about him/her. A student expect to get good mark. An employee expects another good job than his current job. Elderly persons expects respect and care from younger.

In our school days we would have heard about the story of a wood cutter or duck laying golden eggs. What's these stories are trying to say to us? Are we alone expecting things from others? or the whole words is set like that? How can we make our mind prepared that it wont expect anything from others. We can practice not to expect things from others. We can stick to it for few hours but surely we will not be able to keep up our control. We will automatically start to expect something from others.

Let me give an example, which happened in my life recently. One fine day I woke up from my bed(I used to sleep in the floor only) and decided not to expect anything from other. Started the day with a good decision. I brushed and looked at the Bathrooms. Sorry I forgot to mention that I was staying in Mansion. All the bathrooms were occupied. I was thinking when it will be free, any one will come out quickly or not. Then managed to take a bath and started to office. I rushed to the bus stop. Again sorry, I forgot to mention that I go to my office by government bus service (MTC).

I was eagerly waiting for the bus 21H (Browadway - Kelambakkam), which will go near to my office. After few mins I got a bus it was overcrowded. I boarded the bus and I was thinking in this crowd how I will get a seat to sit. But till my stop i was not able to get a seat to sit (the travel time is just 1 and half an hour). From the stop to my office it will be around 1.3km, I was looking for people who are coming in bike and familiar to me, so that I can get myself dropped in my office. But found none so started walking and reached office. After reaching there I noticed I was late by 10 mins. I prayed my manager should not be in the seat, so he won't notice me that I was late. Luckily he was not there I happily went to my place, and shocked to see he was standing in my place. He was waiting for me for the build notes I have to sent. I apologized for being late and then sent out the mail regarding the build notes.

Managed myself to go for my breakfast after an hour. It was around 10:30. In my office canteen, food would be over by 10:00 itself. I though it would be good if i had something to eat. Luckily nothing was there and i had a juice (pomegranite - my favorite one). I returned to my workstation and i was assigned with some work and it should be completed on that day itself. I know definitely I will not be able to complete it by the day. I have to stretch i.e stay this night to complete it. I started my work after an hour I got my tea. I like tea when it is hot. But my tea for that day was not hot. Suddenly my HR called me. I thought it should be a good news, two days back i have applied my leave. I thought he would say my leave was approved. I greeted my HR and asked whether he was looking for me. It's just opposite I never expected that, he assigned me a task that company website should be updated. I thought I should do this work soon so that he would approve my leave. Finally I came to my place and saw my friend (cubical mate) sitting very sad.

I was astonished to see him like this because he was never down with energy. I asked him what happened. He said he had applied MBA in an institution (very famous one not interested in mentioning the name), he was expecting his call letter. But he got a call that he was not selected. When he said the word 'expecting' suddenly i remembered about my decision that I took in the morning. I pointed down how many time I have expected something till that time. I was shocked to see there were more that 10 items. I smiled at me and I marked how much of my expectation came true and found none. Then I came to the conclusion that its very difficult to not expect things from others. Its in our thought, in one way or the other way we all expect something. Some may get positive things in their expectation but most of the things will be failure only.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Dare to Act

Hi all, i want to share some of my experience with you. This thing happened while I am doing my final year under graduation. I am little bit interested in extracurricular activities. I like acting very much. I have performed acting in English Skits and Drama's in college days. One fine day I was called by my English Lecturer Sir. Vedharajan, coordinator of English stage events. I rushed to his room and found six more members were standing there. I was the senior one among the all

My lecturer started that, this year there will be a tough competition for the Youth Festival (an talent hunt which will be conducted for 3 days among various colleges more than 80 events will be there). He added we seven guys have been selected for the youth festival function for acting (English Drama, English Skit, Tamil Drama, Tamil Skit and Mime show). I was literally flying that i got an opportunity to act in the youth festival. It was my dream to get a medal during my college days. I know i can't get medals in studies. I am an average student. I was waiting for this opportunity and I got it. He added I will be the lead for this team. I was very much happy. I never thought that he had that much trust on me.

I felt very happy. He concluded his speech by asking me to prepare some good play for the respective events. I was overjoyed. In my home, I was telling to everyone about the opportunity I got. Except my second elder sister everyone scolded me and advised me to concentrate on studies as it was the final year. I was thinking about the medals only. The person who wins in an event will be awarded with the gold medal. Myself and my lecturer discussed lot of plays and we finalized the play for each event. We got completely struck when we discussed about the event Mime. Mime is an event in which 5 members can participate. No dialogues. Only Music we have to perform an action with some theme. The judges should be able to understand the theme. Based upon the theme winners will be decided.

We had lot of discussion but we were not able to come to a conclusion. During that period only Tsunami struck. We discussed why cant we take this and create a theme. I wrote a script with the theme India will recover very fast from any sort of disaster or problem. Depending upon that we created the play. The play was we are showing some fishermen. They are going into the sea for fishing. At that time tsunami comes and destroys their belongings and relations. They return and find this disaster. They cry and they were consolled by the helping charity. After few days they are returning to the normal life. During this play the "Bharath Matha" will be shown and the expressions will be shown in the face.

I took the role of "Bharath Matha". My role was very simple. I have to stand in a way that I am holding the flag. But there wont be any flag. I have to stand till the play ends. In one scene I have to cry on seeing the dead people (no one will be there). While practising the play i was performing the scene. My lecturer stopped me and he said he didnt see the expression he want. I was repeatedly doing that scene in 5 different way. Finally he performed that scene, it was amazing I never expected that he would act like that. We clapped to cheer him. End of the day we had a personal talk. His words inpired me a lot. He said if you want to be an actor, each and every nerve in your body should act. I cant forget those words.

I made myself ready for that and performed in a way that he was satisfied. For that event there will be seperate marks for uniformity. So we guys shaved our head and applied aluminium powder over our body and we performed the play in the stage. Silence for few mins. Slowly clapping started and it was there for few mins. I cant forget that moment. We won 1 gold medal and 3 silver medal in that competition. My dream came true. Still I have interest for acting but I am not getting an opportunity rather I am not searching for that opportunity.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Software Engineer - A Cursed Life

Hi, I want to tell a story about a Software Engineer. Our hero - the Software Engineer is a very good guy (lets have it for the story). He/She is talented, energetic, allways have the thirst for knowledge, helps other and wants to do something good for the organization (Imagine). One fine day he was assigned with a task for the upcoming project (believed that the project will come to their company). Our hero gets excited and he analyzes the task and discuss with some big people and sends the design to everyone in team and all are fine with that.

Our hero starts the coding and finds some part of the task very complicated. But he toils himself and finishes. He/she executes the code before the team. All are jealous about our hero. Our hero literally flying high. Here comes the twist, one of the design team member asks our hero to add one small functionality in the task. Our hero accepts that and do it immediately. It goes for demo before the client. The client is attracted about the design and work. But the client gives few simple modification that changes the entire design.

Our hero takes this as a challenge and again he starts the coding. Now the design team suggest some easy design that is straight opposite to what our hero develops. Our hero shows a smile to everyone and starts again from the scratch. He/She toils again and completes. The work is shown to the design team lead. The design team lead and the guy who suggested the design has some ego problem again a twist.

The design team lead again changes the design. Our hero feels like crying because the final demo has to be shown in 3 days. Our hero works day and night and a day before the demo he delivers the code. Again the design team lead has a suggestion. Our hero looks at his manager. Manager was not saying anything to the design team lead. Our hero agrees for the changes. Manager personally advice our hero "Please learn to say NO". Hero's mind voice, "Well said, when you are not able to say no. how come you are expecting me to say no?". Again our hero laughs and do the changes.

Final demo, client was certainly not happy about the design. This issue gets escalated. Delivery head enquires what went wrong and founds our hero is reason for the project failuire. Finally our hero was terminated. Our hero questions himself "What I tried? I tried to do something good for my organization.". He blames himself as the life he leads is a cursed life.

Moral: Love your job and not your company. Be a smart worker.